Motherhood

OK, so unlike most new mothers I returned back to work before Mark. So for almost three and half weeks when I was back to work, he was allowed to be Mr. Mom. And he is wonderful

at it. I however other then now, after work, for like three hours tops.. have never been alone with my daughter. Many of you laugh when I tell you stories of how terrified I truly am that something is going to go wrong while I watch her. Well, at the beginning of last week Mark informed me that he had a class to teach and it was until ten EVERY night. What does this mean? Well, it means that I pick her up from Nana's at three-thirty and am with her until around eleven all by myself. Of course I freaked. I have had an upset stomach ever since he told me the news. The reason for this blog is to say I am an idiot! It is now 8:30 on my first night home with her... and SO far we have both survived! We played and trimmed her nails and had a great time. And as I look at her laughing and talking what I can only guess are sweet nothings to her mom to say, "I love you." I wonder how the heck I could ever be terrified of something so cute, wonderful, and precious. So to Elva -- you were right as usual! I just wanted everyone to know that I made it. And that she is a wonderful blessing. I still have doubts that number two will ever come.. other than adoption. But I am enjoying every second!!